Breathe with tears ~ 🕉

These few days I have the feeling that some elements in life are not for me anymore. This feels somehow as a disappointment, but I should also see this as a new opportunity. Sometimes a door just closes, even when you don’t want to. It means a lot of things and you should look at the opportunities ahead of you. Being adopted I always tried to look at life as a second chance. Born in Indonesia but raised in the Netherlands gave me new opportunities to a better life. This was a mindset that kept me going. Even as a little girl I knew I should make the best of it and give it all I got to make this chance a successful one. So everyone will be proud and it wasn’t all for nothing. Lately I still live with this mantra but I also feel the pain more. I realize what happened, what I lost and what I will never get back. It will be lost forever and it’s a harsh reality that sometimes …